A Letter from Mom and Dad

My child,

When I get old, I hope you understand and have patience with me

In case I break a plate, or spill soup on the table because I am losing my eyesight,

I hope you don’t yell at me.

OLDER PEOPLE are sensitive.

…… Always having self pity when you yell.

When my hearing gets worse and I can’t hear what you are saying,

I hope you don’t call me “Deaf!”

Please repeat what you said or write it down.

I am sorry, my Child.

…… I am getting older

When my knees get weaker,

I hope you have the patience to help me get up

Like how I used to help  you while you were little,

Learning how to walk.

Please bear with me.

When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,

I hope you just keep listening to me

Please don’t make fun of me or get sick of listening to me.

Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a balloon?

You repeated yourself over and over until you got what you wanted.

…… Please also pardon my smell.

I smell like an old person.

Please don’t force me to shower.

My body is weak.

Old people get sick easily when they are cold.
I hope I don’t gross you out.

Do you remember when you were little?

I used to chase you around because you didn’t want to shower

I hope you can be patient with me

When I am always cranky

It is all part of getting old.

You will understand when you are older.

And if you have spare time,

I hope we can talk

Even for a few minutes

I am always all by myself all the time and have no one to talk to

I know you are busy with work.

Even if you are not interested in my stories,
Please have time for me.

Do you remember when you were little?

I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear.

When the time comes and I get ill and bedridden,

I hope you have the patience to take care of me.

I AM SORRY

If I accidently wet the bed or make a mess

I hope you have the patience to take care of me

during the last few moments of my life

I am not going to last much longer, anyway.

When the time of my death comes,

I hope you hold my hand

And give me the strength to face death.

And don’t worry…

When I finally meet our Creator…

I will whisper in his ear to BLESS you.

Because you loved your Mom and Dad.

Thank you so much for your care.

WE LOVE YOU.

With much love,

Mom and Dad

Bio transaction

People used to say time flies, now you may realize where you are, but in another moment you will not be in the same place again. I learn and understand these words through my personal experience.

It had been slightly more than a month living in this land, far away from home. The feeling is great to have this unimaginable opportunity on you. Of course with huge and heavy responsibilities as well. Not forgetting the hopes and faith people have and put on you. I would say it is not too hard and not so easy though.

1^st month here is just amazing. You got to experience so much different and unexpected things. Not to mention alien stuffs as well. An important process is running now, what we call adaptation. There are plenty of things that we have to adapt and acclimatize fast here in Volgograd, the City of Heroes.

Life as a medical student is just out and beyond your imagination. Things just turn better when you are in Russia. Everything is contradiction as what it is in Malaysia. Anyway, contradictions made me to compare and analyze better.

My first reaction when received the study schedule was like WOW. Medical school’s WOW effects. Daily class at average started around 8.30am and ended around 5.00pm. 6 studying days in a week which equal to only 1 free day. The only day for you to do whatever you want to do in that week, at the same time thinking about the preparation for classes on the following day. So, in conclusion you just got to work things out in whatever way you figured out to catch up with everything happening around you.

Basically our condition is slightly better compare to a Houseman, a little worse than a normal student. 

“The ugly truth”

Classes are just as NORMAL as it is, as how the pictures came to you when we speak about classes in university. Plus some mass lectures which are conducted on some subjects only.

My group, Group 31 consist of 7 future doctors with the ratio of 3M:4F. We knew each other since INTEC. This will continue till we graduate and officially enter the medical field together hopefully. This friendship will never be the same. Not forgetting other sponsored students of my batch and seniors.

To ensure the brain functioning and performing constantly at its best performance, we got to get the best fuel for it. After head aching classes, time for dinner preparation. This is the field where we had some fun out of all the seriousness from the whole day. High creativity is required. I really enjoy it so much. I never find the kitchen full of fun before. I admit that I am not a good cook, but I am glad that I have such opportunity here. Where I can brush up and learn some skills of cooking. At the same time upgrade myself to become a better person. 

“A man is different if he can do well in kitchen”

Marketing is not so challenging. You just got to try everything and find out about them. Try every single thing that came to your shopping list as nothing to be afraid of. Learn through experience. 

“When you learn through the hard way, you just got to be stupid first and clever after”

Basically, I am on a huge learning process where I learn many things from many different sources. My grandaunt told me before, “You grow up the next day when you live in oversea” I find this sentence so true now. I see things differently now, in some other perspectives. I am no more the old me.  

I take this learning process positively. Water it everyday and wait for the moment to arrive where I can ripe these fruits one day. This very day has a huge distance from me and I am getting one step closer and closer day by day. I may not know when it is but I know it will come one day.

“Unseen moon did not prove that it did not exist” 

Hopes and Dreams

I had been waiting for this moment for such a long time and finally this long waiting period comes to an end, where the next chapter of my life begins to unfold.

My family members were very supportive to me. All of them came to the airport to send me of. My Lok Ku Phor even flew all the way from Australia. I feel grateful to have this bunch of people around me all the time. Constantly providing and nourishing me with everything I need. 

This is the main factor why it is so heavy for me. Hiding your emotion is a real challenge. Putting this tough feeling aside and look into the future is a better solving method. Looking at this transition of life is so meaningful, mix with some emotional challenge.

MH002 from KLIA to London Heathrow Airport. The whole journey took me around 13 Hours and had a nice chit chat session with a Malaysian student from Penang. She is currently doing A-level in one of the college situated in London. Born with a silver spoon in her mouth.

6 Hours of transit in Heathrow is a golden opportunity to have a preview of the English society. Stepping on England’s land is a great feeling. It rather be interesting than getting bored waiting for the next flight to Moscow.

First footstep in Moscow indeed is another indescribable feeling. The weapon of survival – Russian Language. Had the first conversation with the immigration officer. Very good and awesome first impression to me. Security level in the Moscow Sheremetyevo Airport is real tight.

Rushed all the way to make it to the next boarding gate for the final flight to Volgograd. The first bad impression came to me when the air stewardess on board not being so helpful to foreign passengers. The rain in Volgograd welcomed our presence on this City of Heroes.

The airport of Volgograd is just incomparable with their International Airport. Be positive. How often will I be using this one belted airport? Seniors were there to assist us. They carried our bags and luggages into the bus. An early breakfast was also prepared to fill in the empty stomach of us. It feels so much at home. Thanks again.

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